天國之戀，救贖的靈魂

Hmoob太松

曼谷“廊曼機場”到昆明長水需要兩個多小時的飛行旅行，昆明有一趟高鐵開往貴陽北站。It takes more than two hours to fly from Bangkok’s Don Mueang Airport to Kunming Changshui. There is a high-speed rail from Kunming to Guiyang North Railway Station.

流動的人群熙熙攘攘，擁擠的站臺下閃爍著一位黑色行李箱的旅客，看那憂心憂心忡忡的身影就表明，而且可以肯定這是一個長途奔波的人，夜色襲來的“貴陽北站”，他那昏暗的燈光總是描繪著這男人的孔武輪廓，黑色的禮帽，黑色西裝，黑色的皮鞋，印忖在城市霓虹的夜空下。闌珊的都市，讓這個長途跋涉男人看起來有些的疲倦和又看起來有些莫名的期待著什么……

A man with a black suitcase appeared beneath the crowded platform as the crowd moved on. The gloomy figure showed that he was a man on a long journey. At the night， the dim light of “Guiyang North Railway Station” always depicts this man's powerful outline， black top hat， black suit and black shoes， printed under the city's neon night sky. The bustling city， let the man on a long journey look some tired and look some inexplicable looking forward to something…

這時繁華的街道，有一對浪漫的戀人不緊不慢地從他身旁走過，恍惚與不確定之間的意念促使自己不經意向那對男女看過去，當看到這一幕，又看清楚這一幕。頓時，他驚愕地張開了大嘴，睜圓了眼睛，深怕是自己看錯，也寧愿是相信時自己看錯，但是事實就是事實沒有如果。內心獨白：“這不是自己愛人嗎？怎么現在和別人勾肩搭背，成了別人的女友？如此的親呢……，‘’年輕人頓時出現了莫名的很多問號？所有的問題都好像沒有道理又好像若影若現，明了清晰……

At this time， a busy street， a pair of romantic lovers slowly passed by him， between trance and uncertainty of the idea prompted himself to inadvertently look at the couple. When he saw this scene， really cearly. At once， he opened his mouth in astonishment， his eyes wide open， afraided that what he saw was not real， or rather that he preferred to believe he was wrong， but the fact is without if. Inner monologue： "Isn't she my lover？ How can she hook up with someone and become someone else's girlfriend？ So intimate...， ‘’Young people suddenly had many inexplicable questions？ All the questions seem unreasonable and indistinct， clear…

這個男人叫“賈世晨”，理性讓他來到了轉角處，他撥動開機鍵，習慣性地打開了朋友圈，一一的仔仔細細的回憶著，小心翼翼的尋找著可能的蛛絲馬跡，思考著這個同時和自己談了很久的戀愛又和另一個男人曖昧的“甄欣艾”。

The man named “Jia Shichen”， the sanity let him come to the corner， he pushed the power button， habitually opened the circle of friends. He recalled carefully， looking for possible clues， thinking about this "Zhen Xin Ai" who had been in love with him for a long time and was ambiguous with another man.

這一次沒有預約的造訪，顯然男人選擇了理性并沒有當面拆穿，所有的“憤慨”“義憤填膺”“惱羞成怒”都壓抑在煉獄般的胸腔里，然后，選擇獨自一人默默離開，又好像沒有到這里來過，無聊的這座城市顯得那么的無奈、熟悉而陌生。