Learning Chinese: A Reflection from an American Born Chinese (ABC)

By Grace Chen

Notes by Feihong Wang

I recently found myself in a dilemma1dilemma困境，窘境。while editing my resume in preparation for job interviews and graduate school applications: should I put Mandarin as one of the languages that I speak? While part of me believes that I understand about 96 percent of what people say to me, the other part knows that if someone asked me to translate, it would be a complete disaster. My speaking skills in Mandarin are equivalent to a third grader, and I can barely read simple characters. My penmanship2penmanship書法，書寫。looks like somebody closed their eyes and tried to write with their non-dominant hand. However,people are constantly impressed with my ability to read and type pinyin almost fluently—in fact, I find myself texting important information and secrets to my fellow ABCs in pinyin, like a secret code, or using it when asking my parents questions that are not able to be translated in English.Pinyin, to me, is easy because it uses the English alphabet to help facilitate communication in Chinese and is primarily used to help children and beginners learn languages. Similarly, I am like pinyin; I have both Eastern and Western influences, being of Asian descent3descent后裔。and holding an American citizenship. The cultural clash became most evident as I was doing what many readers are doing, too—learning a different language.

My parents joke that I have been trying to learn Mandarin since birth.It is no secret that I am not comfortable speaking in Mandarin; this is perhaps a result of being surrounded by English everywhere, whether at school, in the grocery store, or even on the television. I naturally became accustomed to speaking English because everybody else was doing it.Though my parents and grandparents speak Mandarin at home, I found myself struggling with communication from a young age. There are home videos of a miniature4miniature微型版本。version of me, singing songs with my grandmother in Mandarin, and then quickly switching to sing the same song in English with my older brother. There are many reasons why I am not comfortable using Mandarin—I am insecure about my accent and do not know enough vocabulary. Worst of all, I dread being teased by adults or peers who question if I even know what they are saying. Today, I find myself speaking sentences primarily in what ABCs have endearingly dubbed Chinglish5dubbed Chinglish所謂的“中式英語”，即在美籍華人中通用的一種中英混雜的語言表達方式。作者隨后有更多闡釋和例子。這有別于正統的對“中式英語”的定義，即把中式語言表達方式一一對應，用相應的英文單詞表達出來，但很可能違背了標準英文表達的語法和方式。, a sort of hybrid mixture of Chinese and English. While I am told that this phrase means something completely different in China, it is essentially the universal language of the average ABC here in the United States—sentences usually contain an abundance of English, with a generous sprinkle6sprinkle點綴，噴灑。of Mandarin or even Cantonese every few words. This can be reversed as well, depending on who you are trying to communicate with. Almost every single ABC I know is comfortable, even fluent, in this amusing hybrid language.

ABC Chinglish is easy to use because it gets the point across—you can communicate with anyone that speaks a little bit of both languages,and it may even help with understanding verbs, adjectives, and sentence structures. Personally, because I am fluent and comfortable in English,a majority of my Chinglish sentences are in English. One can use ABC Chinglish when talking to their parents, loved ones, or anybody asking about the following questions: their future careers, how to use technology, why they are still single, when they are getting married, or any other topic that is somehow deemed interesting by nosy aunties7nosy aunty愛八卦的大媽大嬸。. In all seriousness, practicing using both languages may be a segue8segue中轉，遞進。into becoming fully bilingual, as long as one does not become too reliant on it.Here are some funny examples that I have overheard my friends say to their parents on the phone:

Chinglish Words Spoken: 我可以 get 一個 dog 嗎？

English Translation: Can I get a dog?

Chinglish Words Spoken: 我 drink too much 咖啡，整天在找 bathroom…

English Translation: I drink too much coffee, I’m always looking for a bathroom…

It also occurred to me that some readers may take classes to learn English. Similarly, a rite of passage9rite of passage標志人生重要階段的正式儀式，如成人儀式、入會儀式。for ABCs is going to Chinese school as a child to take classes to promote fluency in Mandarin, perhaps even joining the Chinese dance team or Chinese yo-yo team as well.Without a doubt, every single ABC that I know has a handful of hilarious10hilarious歡鬧的，memories regarding their dislike for Chinese school11Chinese school中文學校，特指在美國由華人父母發起的非營利組織提供不同程度周末課輔之其他外活動如民族舞蹈、繪畫功夫課，致力于中文文化與語言的發揚和傳承。. My own stories involve secretly trading cookies with other students while whispering in English in secrecy almost equivalent to underground trading12underground trading地下交易。; this was a surefire13surefire打包票的，屢試屢中的。way to be put in time-out14time-out一種管教方式，取消犯規孩子參與正在進行的活動的權利，讓其單處一邊安靜反思，類似于罰坐或罰站。and earn a long-winded15long-winded冗長的phone call to the parents. My roommate once ran away from Chinese school by hiding in her mom’s car, sparking a city-wide search for her. She simply rolled around in the trunk16trunk后車廂。as her parents drove around town, searching frantically for their missing daughter, who hid silently because she did not want to attend Chinese class. There were many nice teachers, but there were also strict teachers who scared students by saying that their careers would be at their local McDonald’s if they could not speak Mandarin properly. However, the two things that almost every ABC remembers are the awesome snacks (American junk food), and the friends that they made. I believe that a true bond of friendship is made when people suffer together, and Chinese school is a prime example. Not only was it difficult and stressful, it felt more taxing17taxing任務繁重的，作業繁多的。than our actual school classes. The friendships formed made the hours of studying and stress worth it. These friends were easy to make because they were all ABCs as well, and had similar struggles in communication and learning. Even though we were young, we would study vocabulary together, encourage each other as we struggled to write in-class essays, and celebrate when our final exams were over. Therefore, I encourage people learning different languages to make new and supportive friends to bond with throughout the trials, to rejoice with in success, and to have fun with while learning.

Learning a new language is difficult, but one of the best moments is being able to communicate with a new person. I found that my years of Chinese school and attempting to speak Mandarin at home paid off when I became a camp counselor18camp counselor課外班輔導員。and met some girls from Taipei, who did not speak English. I managed to translate for them and became their friend,even joking around and bonding with them over music and TV shows.Even though we were from different places and were different ages, I saw the universality and power of language by breaking the barriers between us. While my Mandarin definitely wasn’t perfect, and their English wasn’t strong, we managed to create a friendship simply by trying to communicate.To all readers, I hope that you keep on working hard, and that you get back up1919 get back up重新站起來。when there are mistakes, difficulties, or trials in communication that you face. One day, you will be able to communicate with new people, make connections and friendships, and change the world. You can do it! ■

Grace’s Tip of the Day for Learning a New Language

Watch TV or listen to some music with translation, especially something that you enjoy!

Grace’s Bio

Grace Chen is your average college student—she has no idea how she got through four years of college, but she graduated in May of 2017 with her degrees in Psychology and Educational Studies.She is fueled20fuel加油，添加能量。by a steady routine of coffee and smoothies, and presses her snooze button2121 snooze button打盹兒的按鈕。approximately fourteen times every morning. Grace is an ABC and loves trying her mother’s recipes for various Chinese foods in her tiny kitchen, as well as bonding with other ABCs over boba tea2222 boba tea波霸奶茶。and dim sum. You can also find her playing the ukulele23ukulele起源于美國夏威夷, watching “Friends,” playing various sports in the beautiful Florida weather, and struggling to stay awake in class.