生命中非做不可的事

王靜靜

Age has reached the end of the beginning of a word. May be guilty in his seems to pass-ing a lot of different life became the appearance of the same day; May be back in the past， to oneself the paranoid weird belief disillusion-ment， these days， my mind has been very messy， in my mind constantly. Always feel one-self should go to do something， or write some-thing. Twenty years of life trajectory deeply shallow， suddenly feel something， do it.

The end of our life， and can meet many things really do？

During my childhood， think lucky money and new clothes are necessary for New Year，but as the advance of the age， will be more and more found that those things are optional; Ju-nior high school， thought to have a crush on just means that the real growth， but over the past three years later， his writing of alumni in peace， suddenly found that isnt really grow up， it seems is not so important; Then in high school， think dont want to give vent to out your inner voice can be in the high school chil-dren of the feelings in a period， but was eventu-ally infarction when graduation party in the throat， later again stood on the pitch he has sweat profusely， looked at his thrown a basket-ball hoops， suddenly found himself has already cant remember his appearance.

Originally， this world， can produce a chem-ical reaction to an event， in addition to resolute-ly， have to do， and time.

A persons time， your ideas are always special to clear. Want， line is clear， as if nothing could shake his. Also once seemed to be deter-mined to do something， but more often is he backed out at last. Dislike his cowardice， final-ly found that there are a lot of love， there are a lot of miss， like shadow really have been doomed. Those who do， just green years one-self give oneself an arm injection， or is a self-righteous spiritual.

At the moment， the sky is dark， the air is fresh factor after just rained. Suddenly thought of blue plaid shirt; Those were broken into vari-ous shapes of stationery; From the corner at the beginning of deep friendship; Have declared the end of the encounter that havent start plan-ning... Those years， those days of do， finally，like youth， will end in our life.

一字開頭的年齡已經到了尾聲。或許是愧疚于自己似乎把轉瞬即逝的很多個不同的日子過成了同一天的樣子；或許是追溯過去，對自己那些近乎偏執的怪異信念的醒悟，這些天以來，思緒一直很凌亂，在腦海中不斷糾纏。總覺得自己似乎應該去做點什么，或者寫點什么。二十年的人生軌跡深深淺淺，突然就感覺到有些事情，非做不可了。

而窮盡我們的一生，又能遇到多少事情是真正地非做不可？

童年時，覺得壓歲錢和新衣服是過年必備，但是隨著年齡的推進，會越來越發現，那些東西根本就可有可無；初中時，以為要有一場暗戀才意味著真正的成長，但三年過去后，自己心平氣和地寫同學錄的時候，突然就發現是不是真正的成長了，好像并沒有那么重要了；然后到了高中，覺得非要吐露出自己的心聲才能為高中生涯里的懵懂情愫劃上一個句點，但畢業晚會的時候最終還是被梗塞在了咽喉，后來再次站在他曾經揮汗如雨的球場，看著他投過籃球的球框時，突然間發現自己已經想不起他的容顏。

原來，這個世界上，對某個事件能產生化學反應的，除了非做不可的堅決，還有，時間。

一個人的時候，自己的想法總是特別地清晰。想要的，界限明確，好像沒有什么可以撼動自己。也曾經好像已經下定了決心去做某件事，但更多的時候是最后又打起了退堂鼓。嫌惡過自己的怯懦，最終卻發現有很多緣分，有很多錯過，好像冥冥之中真的已經注定。那些曾經所謂的非做不可，只是青蔥年華里自己給自己注射的一支強心劑，或者說，是自以為是的精神寄托罷了。

此刻，天空是陰暗的，空氣里有著剛下過雨之后的清新因子。突然想到那件藍格子襯衫；那些被折成各種各樣形狀的信紙；那段從街角深巷伊始的友誼；還有那場還沒有開始就宣告了終結的邂逅計劃……那些年那些天的非做不可，終于和青春一樣，都將在我們的人生中謝幕。