A Light for Lena 莉娜心中的溫暖光芒

By+Patricia+McFadden+譯+/+李笑

The wind whipped1） stinging2） flakes into Lena's face as she went home from school in the December gloom. How she despised3） the snow—and everything else about Pinetree， Wyoming. How she missed Thailand and her best friend， Tor.

Tor would be happy here， Lena thought. She would be happy anywhere. Mama says Tor has a heart of light. My heart is as dark as ebony4）. I hate it here！ I want to go home！

Lena pushed open the door to her parents' restaurant. She took a small white envelope out of her pocket and frowned at it uncertainly. In it was an invitation to Jennifer Wendell's party. Lena didn't want to go. She cringed5） at the thought of being at a party with a bunch of kids she barely knew.

Tor would go and have a good time， Lena thought. I'm not Tor， but maybe I can pretend to be her for Mama and Papa's sake. They are so worried that I'm not making any friends.

Her mind made up， she went into the kitchen. "Hello， Mama，" she said. "I've been invited to a party Friday night."

Her mother smiled. "That is very good！ Now perhaps you will be happy in our new home."

Pinetree， Wyoming， is not my home， Lena thought， and I will never be happy until I am in Bangkok again. Out loud， she answered， "Perhaps."

Friday evening， Papa drove Lena to the party. Be like Tor， be like Tor， she chanted6） to herself.

Jennifer met her at the door. "Hi， Lena！ Come on in. We're just about to decorate gingerbread7） houses."

Lena followed Jennifer into the dining room. Six kids from her class were seated around the table. Lena gave them a friendly， Tor-style greeting and took a chair. So far so good， she thought.

She looked curiously at the small brown cookie houses sitting on the table. The other kids began selecting colorful candies and using white icing8） to glue them to the houses. Lena grinned. She loved to make things. For this part of the party， she could be herself.

She decided to decorate her cottage like one of the golden temples of Thailand. First， she completely covered the sides with every kind of yellow candy available. Then， she studded9） the roof and door with jewel-like shards10） of lollipop11）.

"Wow， Lena， that's beautiful！" Jennifer said.

The others chimed in12） with compliments. Lena felt a warm glow. Maybe I can fit in here—a little， she thought.

As the party moved into the living room， the talk turned to the coming holidays.

"What do you want for Christmas， Lena？" Jennifer asked.endprint

"My family is Buddhist，" Lena answered. "We don't celebrate Christmas." So much for fitting in， she thought.

"My family's Jewish，" Jason said. "We don't have Christmas either. We celebrated Hanukkah earlier this month. What holidays do Buddhists have？"

Lena looked around. The others were gazing at her with friendly interest.

"Well， this time of year， we have my favorite holiday， Loy Krathong，" she began. "It's a festival to thank the Mother of Water. On the full moon in the twelfth lunar month—usually in November—we each use banana leaves to make a little boat called a krathong， and we place a candle in it. Then we make a wish for the coming year， light the candle， and set our boats adrift on the river. Soon， there are so many floating candles that the river looks like it's made of diamonds."

"It sounds beautiful，" Jennifer said quietly.

"It is，" Lena replied.

"I've been dying to ask you about Thailand，" said Sally， "but at school， you always keep to yourself. I didn't want to bother you."

Lena thought back over the past few months. She realized that she had been so miserably homesick that she hadn't given anyone much of a chance to be friendly.

"I'm sorry I've been so quiet，" Lena said. "I would love to tell you about Thailand." Suddenly， she got an idea. "Perhaps，" she ventured13）， "you would like to make krathongs？ There's even a full moon tonight."

"Sounds like fun，" Jason said. "But what would we use to make them？ There aren't any banana trees in Wyoming."

Pointing to the Advent wreath14） on the coffee table， Lena said， "We could make something like that， only smaller. They could be Wyoming krathongs."

Jennifer jumped up. "Super！" she cheered. "I'll get some pine branches and ask Mom if we can take them to the lake when we're done. It's not frozen yet." Bubbling15） with excitement， she raced out of the room.

Watching Jennifer， Lena smiled and thought， She's just like Tor.

Later， standing beside the others watching the flickering lights float on the lake， Lena didn't even notice the cold. Her heart was glowing as brightly as a krathong candle. For the first time， Pinetree， Wyoming， felt like home.

天氣陰沉的12月，莉娜走在放學(xué)回家的路上，大風(fēng)裹著雪花抽打在她臉上，刺得她生疼。她多么討厭下雪，討厭懷俄明州青松地區(qū)的一切！她好懷念泰國(guó)和她最好的朋友托爾。

托爾在這里會(huì)很開(kāi)心的，莉娜想，她不管在哪兒都能過(guò)得開(kāi)心。媽媽說(shuō)托爾有一顆充滿光芒的心。而我的心像烏木一樣黑暗。我討厭這里！我想回家！

莉娜推開(kāi)父母經(jīng)營(yíng)的餐廳的大門(mén)。她從口袋里拿出一個(gè)白色的小信封，皺著眉頭遲疑地看著它。里面是珍妮弗·溫德?tīng)柕木蹠?huì)邀請(qǐng)信。莉娜不想去。一想到聚會(huì)時(shí)要和一幫不怎么認(rèn)識(shí)的孩子們待在一起，她就不由得畏怯。endprint

要是換了托爾，她一定會(huì)去的，而且還會(huì)玩得很開(kāi)心，莉娜想，我不是托爾，但是為了爸爸媽媽?zhuān)一蛟S可以假裝成她。他們非常擔(dān)心我一個(gè)朋友都沒(méi)去交。

打定主意后，她走進(jìn)廚房。“嗨，媽媽?zhuān)彼f(shuō)，“有人邀請(qǐng)我去參加周五晚上的一個(gè)聚會(huì)。”

媽媽笑著說(shuō)：“那真是太好啦！現(xiàn)在說(shuō)不定你在我們的新家里會(huì)變得開(kāi)心起來(lái)。”

懷俄明州青松地區(qū)不是我的家，莉娜想，除非我重新回到曼谷，否則我永遠(yuǎn)都不會(huì)開(kāi)心的。但她大聲回答說(shuō)：“或許吧。”

周五晚上，爸爸開(kāi)車(chē)送莉娜去參加聚會(huì)。要像托爾那樣，要像托爾那樣，她不斷地對(duì)自己說(shuō)。

珍妮弗在門(mén)口接她。“嗨，莉娜！快進(jìn)來(lái)。我們正準(zhǔn)備裝飾姜餅屋呢。”

莉娜跟著珍妮弗走進(jìn)餐廳。她班上的六個(gè)同學(xué)圍坐在桌旁。莉娜像托爾那樣友好地向他們打了個(gè)招呼，然后找了個(gè)椅子坐下。到目前為止一切都還好，她想。

她好奇地看著桌上那一個(gè)個(gè)小小的棕色餅干房。其他孩子們開(kāi)始挑選彩色的糖果，然后用白色的糖霜把糖果粘在餅干房上。莉娜咧嘴笑了。她喜歡手工制作。在聚會(huì)的這個(gè)環(huán)節(jié)，她可以做她自己。

她決定把自己的小屋裝飾成泰國(guó)某一座金色寺廟的樣子。首先，她用現(xiàn)有的各種黃色糖果粘滿小屋的四面墻，然后又用寶石般的棒棒糖碎粒來(lái)點(diǎn)綴屋頂和門(mén)。

“哇，莉娜，它好漂亮！”珍妮弗說(shuō)。

其他人也七嘴八舌地稱(chēng)贊。莉娜感到一縷溫暖的光芒。也許我能融入這里——一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)，她想。

隨著聚會(huì)挪到客廳進(jìn)行，他們的閑聊也轉(zhuǎn)到了即將到來(lái)的假期上。

“圣誕節(jié)你想要什么，莉娜？”珍妮弗問(wèn)道。

“我們家信佛教，”莉娜回答說(shuō)，“我們不過(guò)圣誕節(jié)。”看來(lái)只能融入這么多了，她想。

“我們家信猶太教，”賈森說(shuō)，“我們也不過(guò)圣誕節(jié)。這個(gè)月初我們慶祝了光明節(jié)。佛教徒都過(guò)什么節(jié)呢？”

莉娜環(huán)顧四周，其他人正饒有興致地注視著她，頗為友好。

“嗯，每年的這個(gè)時(shí)節(jié)，我們會(huì)過(guò)一個(gè)我最喜歡的節(jié)日，水燈節(jié)，”她說(shuō)了起來(lái)，“這個(gè)節(jié)日是用來(lái)感謝水神的。在陰歷12月（通常是在公歷11月）的滿月這一天，我們每個(gè)人都會(huì)用芭蕉葉做一只叫做水燈的小船，還會(huì)在里面放上一支蠟燭。然后我們?yōu)閬?lái)年許下心愿，點(diǎn)燃蠟燭，把小船放入河中讓它順?biāo)鳌：芸欤用嫔暇蜁?huì)有特別多漂動(dòng)的蠟燭，河水看起來(lái)就像鉆石做的一樣。”

“聽(tīng)起來(lái)好美啊。”珍妮弗輕聲地說(shuō)。

“是很美。”莉娜回答。

“我一直特別想問(wèn)問(wèn)你關(guān)于泰國(guó)的事，”薩莉說(shuō)，“但是在學(xué)校里，你總是自己一個(gè)人，我不想打擾你。”

莉娜回想起過(guò)去的幾個(gè)月。她意識(shí)到自己當(dāng)時(shí)一直沉浸在思鄉(xiāng)的痛苦中，沒(méi)有給任何人多少對(duì)她表示友好的機(jī)會(huì)。

“很抱歉我一直都那么沉默，”莉娜說(shuō)，“我非常愿意告訴你關(guān)于泰國(guó)的事。”突然間，她想到了一個(gè)主意。“也許，”她大膽提議道，“你們會(huì)想做做水燈？今晚正好是滿月呢。”

“聽(tīng)起來(lái)很有趣，”賈森說(shuō)，“但是我們用什么來(lái)做呢？懷俄明州一棵芭蕉樹(shù)也沒(méi)有呀。”

莉娜指著咖啡桌上的將臨圈說(shuō)：“我們可以做成這樣的，只是要比它小一些。這些船可以叫做懷俄明州水燈。”

珍妮弗跳了起來(lái)。“太棒了！”她歡呼道，“我去拿一些松枝，然后問(wèn)問(wèn)我媽等我們做好之后能不能拿到湖邊去。湖水現(xiàn)在還沒(méi)有結(jié)冰呢。”她非常興奮地沖出了房間。

看著珍妮弗，莉娜笑了笑，心想，她就像托爾一樣。

后來(lái)，莉娜站在其他人的身旁，望著跳動(dòng)的燭光漂在湖面上，她甚至都沒(méi)有感覺(jué)到冷。她心中閃爍著像水燈蠟燭那樣明亮的光芒，懷俄明州青松地區(qū)第一次讓她有了家的感覺(jué)。

1. whip [w?p] vt. （風(fēng)等）猛擊

2. sting [st??] vi. 感到（或引起）刺痛

3. despise [d??spa?z] vt. 鄙視，看不起

4. ebony [?eb?ni] n. 烏木；烏木樹(shù)

5. cringe [kr?nd?] vi. 畏縮

6. chant [t?ɑ?nt] vi. 反復(fù)地說(shuō)

7. gingerbread [?d??nd??bred] n. 姜餅

8. icing [?a?s??] n. （糕餅的）糖衣，糖霜

9. stud [st?d] vt. （星星點(diǎn)點(diǎn)地）裝飾，點(diǎn)綴

10. shard [?ɑ?d] n. （尤指陶瓷的）碎片，碎塊

11. lollipop [?l?lip?p] n. 棒棒糖

12. chime in： 插話表示贊成

13. venture [?vent??（r）] vt. 大膽表示

14. Advent wreath： 將臨圈，是用常青樹(shù)枝編織而成的圓圈或花冠，上面安放有四支蠟燭，可懸掛在墻壁上或擺放在桌子上，象征基督帶來(lái)光。

15. bubble [?b?bl] vi. 充滿；洋溢endprint