Advancedwiththedifficulties

寧佐權

I looked out of the window—the incoming rain. Yet my mum had passed away when I arrived at the hospital.Those who behind her passed me a notebook and then I looked at it—a wonderful beach on the cover.I opened it， with a picture in it.It was of our family—smiling and playing for the camera on our vacation to the Sumshine Beach last year.She always had a big smile， smiling for the joy， for the success， even for the failure along with sadness.I could not hold back my tears while seeing the photo， thinking of everything about her.But next to me were my two sons –looking at my behaviors and expressions.I tried to keep calm， continueing to read the book， which seemed that she filled the book with some diaries.I started to read：

“On 13.Sept. 1977：I did succeed！I was admitted to enter my dream university.”

“On 7. Jun.1981：I was given a chance to do a speech of the experience about study at my graduation ceremony due to my excellent bahavior and grades.Feeling nervous， but I still I want to try my best.”

“On 21.Mar.1983：My first job came.”

“On 15.Sept.1986：My daughter was born today.I felt more than satisfied， and so did my husband.”

“On 17.Apr.1988：Taught Mary to walk and speak.Tired as I felt， I would continue.”

“On 23.Nov.1992：I felt so tired recently with more extra work than usual.Sometimes I even fell asleep in my office at midnight.”

“On 3.Sept.2000：My mum passed away today.It saddens me to accept the case.”

“On 24 .Apr.2017：I knew that I was going to die.I donn want to end up so early with so many regrets left.”

The last of it was a letter：

“It is common for us to die one day.Everthing goes well， no matter shoes death occur， and so is your life.

I know it is hard to do something for my age.But you are young with much time to do many things to achieve your dream and even change the world.Throw away your disadvantages， such as laziness and lack of ambition.Be the best as you can be.Do not regret when you grow older…”

I did not continue to read， I knew how hard she was every time.Yet she had lived a so great life with almost every goal of her achieved.And she knew what would influence me or make me failed.

The next day was her funeral， on our arrival， the priest started the memorial speech， I have a strong belief that there are no accidents or coincidents in this wolrd.I am confident in the idea that everything happens for a reason and that the people we met come into our lives for a reason， to touch us in some way or probably even change the our lives， though the reason may not be clear at first.I did not know Kelly for a long time， and in all honesty not very well.For those who did not know her， Id like to share some of what I know， in the hope thateven though Kelly cannot physically be here today， part of her may live on in each of us.endprint

Kelly was in my opinion， the most warm-hearted person I have ever known.She was always long to learn new things， to put them into practice.Every time she learned new things， you could see sparkle in her eyes.She was a child at heart who was not impressed with this world including some gloom.Kelly had a special interst and was gifted in language， medicine and reading.She has volunteered in almost every corner of Asia， Africa and South America.She regarded the people there as her own children.In todays world people are too utilitarian， they just seek to look through you.Nevertheless， Kelly was always understanding the great importance of being a child at heart， yet the grace of adults.Kelly was also brave and independent， she went to college on her own at her 17 without her parents.As she grew into manhood， she ventured into the unknown lands to explore new things， to challenge herself.So I want to tell you all that we are suppoed to leran as much as we can from the examples she left us， and keep Kelly in your heart， looking forward to the day we met her again.

I looked out of the window—the incoming rain to stop.I stepped out of the Cathedral.I knew I needed to do something to change myself.endprint