媽媽的擁抱

A Hug from Mom

When I tried to hug her, she'd tell me it was too hot for hugs. So I learned to stop trying. We never had conversations①conversation 英 [k?nv?'se??(?)n] 美 [,kɑnv?'se??n] n. 交談，會話；社交；交往，交際；會談；（人與計算機的）人機對話.I thought it was normal②normal 英 ['n??m(?)l] 美 ['n?rml]adj. 正常的；正規的，標準的n. 正常；標準；常態. It was all I knew. I always thought the relationship③relationship 英 [r?'le??(?)n??p] 美 [r?'le??n'??p]n. 關系；關聯between a mother and a child was about giving and receiving orders④order 英 ['??d?] 美 ['?rd?] n. 命令；順序；規則；[貿易]定單vt. 命令；整理；定購vi. 命令；定貨. But when I was ten years old,I went to a friend's house to do a school project. At first I remember feeling sorry for him. His family was so poor. There was almost nothing in the house. But when we walked inside,his mom gave him such a big hug. And she was so happy to see him. And that was the saddest moment of my life. Because I never knew that was something you could have. My mom still doesn't hug me. But I think we're on the way to that. I had an asthma⑤asthma 英 ['?sm?] 美 ['?zm?] n. [內科 ][中醫 ] 哮喘，氣喘attack⑥attack 英 [?'t?k] 美 [?'t?k] n. 攻擊；抨擊；疾病發作vt. 攻擊；抨擊；動手干vi. 攻擊；腐蝕recently, and I felt so weak, and she told me I could lay my head in her lap⑦lap 英 [l?p] 美 [l?p] n. 一圈；膝蓋；下擺；山坳 vt. 使重疊；拍打；包圍vi. 重疊；輕拍；圍住. I can't explain how special⑧special 英 ['spe?(?)l] 美 ['sp??l] n. 特使，特派人員；特刊；特色菜；專車；特價商品adj. 特別的；專門的，專用的that made me feel.

我想擁抱她，她說抱著太熱了，所以我學會了不再嘗試。我們從沒有過真正的談話，我覺得那很正常，我所知道的就是這樣的，我一直以為母親和孩子之間就是她說什么你做什么。但我10歲時去一個朋友家做一個學校布置的任務，記得一開始我還為他難過呢：他家窮得叮當響，可以說是家徒四壁。但我們一進門，他媽媽就給了他一個好大的擁抱，她看到他好開心哦。那是我這輩子最難過的時刻，因為我從不知道那是我本來可以擁有的。我媽媽還是不擁抱我，但我認為我們正朝著那個方向去：最近我哮喘發作，渾身沒勁兒，她跟我說我可以把頭放在她腿上。說不出來那讓我感覺有多特別。