這一刻已經足夠

By+Leo+Babauta1

I was in a plane descending2） into Portland for a quick stopover， and I gazed upon a brilliant pink sunrise over blue and purple mountains， and my heart ached.

Instinctively， I looked over to Eva to share this breath-taking moment， but she was sleeping. I felt incomplete， not being able to share the moment with her， or with anyone. Its beauty was slipping through my fingers.

This was a teachable moment for me： I somehow felt this moment wasnt enough， without being able to share it. It took me a second to remind myself： this moment is enough.

Its enough， without needing to be shared or photographed or improved or commented upon. Its enough， awe-inspiring3） just as it is4）.

Im not alone in this feeling， that the moment needs to be captured by photo to be complete， or shared somehow on social media. Its the entire reason for Instagram， for instance.

We feel the moment isnt enough unless we talk about it， share it， somehow solidify5） it. The moment is ephemeral6）， and we want solidity and permanence. This kind of groundlessness7） can scare us.

This feeling of not-enoughness is fairly pervasive8） in our lives：

We sit down to eat and feel we should be reading something online， checking messages， doing work. As if eating the food werent enough.

We get annoyed with people when they dont act as we want them to—the way they are feels like its not enough.

We feel directionless and lost in life， as if the life we have is not already enough.

We procrastinate9） when we know we should sit down to do important work， going for distractions， as if the work is not enough for us.

We always feel theres something else we should be doing， and cant just sit in peace.

We mourn10） the loss of people， of the past， of traditions ... because the present feels like its not enough.

We are constantly thinking about whats to come， as if its not enough to focus on whats right in front of us.

We constantly look to improve ourselves， or to improve others， as if we and they are not already enough as we are.

We reject situations， reject people， reject ourselves， because we feel theyre not enough.

What if we accepted this present moment， and everyone and everything in it， as exactly enough？

What if we needed nothing more？

What if we accepted that this moment will slip away when its done， and saw the fleeting11） time we had with the moment as enough， without needing to share it or capture it？

What if we said yes to things， instead of rejecting them？

What if we accepted the "bad" with the good， the failures with the attempts， the irritating with the beautiful， the fear with the opportunity， as part of a package deal that this moment is offering us？

What if we paused right now， and saw everything in this present moment around us （including ourselves）， and just appreciated it for what it is， as perfectly enough？

我乘坐的飛機準備降落到波特蘭短暫停留時，我望見一道燦爛奪目的粉紅朝霞籠罩著遠處藍紫相間的山脈，我的心為之一痛。

本能地，我看了眼伊娃，想同她分享這壯觀的時刻，可她卻睡著了。我有一種不完整的感覺，因為無法同伊娃，哪怕任何一個人分享這一刻。美景就這樣從我的指間溜走。

這一刻讓我有所感悟：我莫名地覺得這一刻不夠盡興，是因為沒能與他人共享它。我用了一會兒才提醒自己：這一刻已經足夠。

這一刻已經足夠，它不需要被分享、被拍照、被改善或被評論。它已然是那樣的令人驚嘆，這就夠了。

并非只有我一個人有這樣的感受，即認為這一刻應該被相機捕捉下來或被分享到社交媒體上才算完整。這正是Instagram之類的社交媒體出現的原因。

我們覺得這一刻還不夠，除非我們談論了它，分享了它，以某種方式將它凝固。這一刻是短暫的，而我們想要的是凝固和永恒。這種飄忽不定的感覺使我們害怕。

這種不夠的感覺在我們生活中相當普遍。

我們坐下來吃東西時總覺得還要上網看點什么、查查有什么信息、做點工作上的事情，就好像光吃東西這件事并不足夠一樣。

我們常常對那些不按我們的想法行事的人感到惱火——他們的行事方式讓人感覺做得還不夠。

我們感到在生活中失去了方向，迷失了自我，好像我們所擁有的生活并不足夠。

我們在自知該坐下來干點要事的時候拖拖拉拉，反而去做一些令我們分心的事情，就好像對我們而言那件重要的事情還不夠似的。

我們總是覺得還有些其他事要做，因而不能就那么安安靜靜地坐著。

我們悼念那些逝去的人、悼念過去、悼念傳統……因為活在當下并不能讓我們感到滿足。

我們總是想著接下來會發生什么，就好像僅僅關注眼前的事并不足夠一樣。

我們不斷地想著提高自己，或者改善他人，就好像我們和他們現在這個樣子還不夠一樣。

我們不滿于當下的狀況，不滿于他人、不滿于我們自己，因為我們覺得這些都不足夠。

假如我們接受此刻，接受處在這一刻的所有人和所有事，覺得這些剛好足夠，會怎樣呢？

假如我們不再需要更多，會怎樣呢？

假如我們接受此刻結束后就會溜走這一事實，認為我們這一刻所擁有的轉瞬即逝的時間無需分享，也無需用鏡頭去捕捉就已足夠時，又會怎樣呢？

假如我們不再拒絕很多事情，而是抱著接受的態度又會怎樣呢？

假如我們在接受好的同時又能接受“壞”，接受嘗試的同時又能接受失敗，接受美的同時又能接受不快，接受機遇的同時又能接受恐懼，就好像這一切都是這一刻交付給我們的成套交易一樣時，又會怎樣呢？